Taking It Day By Day

Starting to feel a little bit better over what my little family went through last week. Losing a baby is the hardest thing that any mother will ever go through. It feels like I'm empty, like something is now missing, that can never be replaced. But I will get through this. I am a strong person. I have all the support I could ever ask for and I am so so grateful for everyone in my life.

The Day Before THE Day

So tomorrow I'm going in for my first ever operation and let me tell you I am absolutely crapping my pants about it all. It's nothing major just routine surgery but just the thought of being put under anaesthetic is really scaring me. What if I don't go to sleep? What if I feel everything thats happening? Argh! I am so stressed and anxious about it!

Anyway, today I am just trying to eat well (I have to fast from 10pm tonight!) and rest as much as possible while Benjamin is at Child Care, now if only I could turn my mind/thoughts off things would be much much easier.